At 5am I walked up and down the stairs for the hundredth time.Today, was the day , when I would meet this little girl who was residing inside me. Today I would see her face and I would finally be able to go home to see the other little child who awaited us. Just after breakfast, the nursing staff decided that I should go to the labour ward. She announced her arrival with one huge howl , and then was silent. When I next saw her she was curled with her tiny butt in the air and her thumb still in her mouth.
A few hours later they brought this scrap to me. She opened her huge brown eyes and looked at me. I was in love.
She has continued to fascinate me. I watch her in awe, this baby of mine turned 18yrs old , 3c months ago, and her life has never ceased to fascinate me. She smiles continuously. She falls, and scrabbles up, bleeding and bruised, and smiles at the world. She has a passion for life and everything in this world, that never wanes. No matter what time she wakes up, the smile is there. She is , without a doubt, my sunshine.
While she feels pain, and is so connected to the "world" and everything in it, her positivity overflows onto everything she touches. From day one, she knew .....she knew that she garnered her energy , from what she could give to others.
As quick as she may be to anger, so quick is her forgiveness and her love. There is not a bone of malice in this child. The day she came home, she had everyone eating out of her hand, and that has continued. Her sister was extremely possessive, even at 2 and a half and would let no one near her - stating she was "my hang cass", but this big eyed, big hearted sunshine has so much to give everyone who is graced to be in her company.